Tag: the life and times

fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk i hate having to sit there and silently fume when my parents say horrible homophobic things i hate not being able to defend myself hate just having to take it because when i called out my uncle on his gross homophobia he found out that im not straight and i just do not even remotely come close to having the energy to tell me parents im fucking not straight

i hate my mom belittling me and making me feel like trash all the time and then fucking turning around and trying to give me hugs and kisses like she didnt just fucking shit all over my whole life

i hate that they fucking insist that they are doing whats “best for me” even though they dont even fucking KNOW me and treat me like a fucking child and give me anxiety all the time and make me feel like fucking trashhhhhhhhhhh

i hate that im going to be fucking stuck here for another fucking year because they just DECIDED that they were only going to give me 15k a year to go to school which pays for fucking NOTHING these days even though they CAN FUCKING AFFORD TO PUT ME THROUGH SCHOOL JUST FINE they just fucking dont think im worth it

im just so unhappy with my life right now its so hard to get up in the morning and feed myself the future looks so fucking bleak in this goddamn house. 

im just so unhappy and i want to be ok i want to function like a healthy person and not cry all the time and have a parents who actually give a shit about me and listen when i try to talk to them but i dont.

i have no control over the situation and i feel like a disgrace and it makes my physically ill i feel sick to my stomach because i don’t know how to fucking make anything better 

when you start to feel your depression creep up on you and you know theres nothing you can do to stop it and you just have to sit there while you physically feel it getting closer and closer and making you feel fucking terrible and unable to accomplish basic tasks

haha

ha ha ha

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im art constipated. i cant fucking do anything today

i just feel so fucking shitty and i know i have to go out and find a job but im so fucking tired all the time its a fucking struggle to even get on tumblr

i just want to turn my brain off and draw but my brain is not turning off and everything im drawing looks like trashhhhhhhhhhh

if i could start taking commissions i could probably get out of having to find a job in like fucking retail or something but how am i supposed to take commissions if my fucking brain is constipated

everything is terrible and i feel awful

I want to cry. my parents told me I have to get a job in three weeks or there will be “serious consequences” but I’m so stressed because I have pink hair

I know that having an unnatural hair color severely lowers my chances of getting a job but I really really REALLY don’t want to go back to having dark hair.

having pink hair has made me so happy! I feel a lot prettier and more comfortable with pink hair and I don’t want to have to let it go. I’ve had it for almost a year now and when I look at pictures of me before I dyed it it just feels gross and unnatural.

I’m so fucking unhappy about this I’m so unhappy about everything I feel like every morning I wake up with fewer and fewer spoons and I just don’t know what to do

fuuuuuccccckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk

reblogging anything from jumpingjackflash or vastderp when i dont agree with them is always really stressful for me because i have a lot of respect for them but i don’t always have the same opinions as then which is OK  and i know that it is in the logical part of my brain but the emotional “i want people who i respect to like me” part of my brain always flips out a little because what if they read what i say and then they HATE ME 

*wheezing nerd sounds*

s-senpais….im gomen….

Dont you think its really cute when your “"best friend”“ gets a boyfriend and then never hangs out with you again????

Like you LITERALLY never see them without him?

i think that thats just

really.

fucking.

cute.

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