Tag: violence

my depression has been really bad lately but it hasn’t even been manifesting as sadness which I feel like would be easier to deal with its manifesting simultaneously as listlessness and an insistent maddening /anger/

I feel like it’s a physical sensation in my chest and it just makes me want to take out all of this aggressive violent energy on something. I just want to bite and scream and scratch the shit out of someone and break something but I can’t do that because I’m not a fucking toddler and you’re not allowed to have a temper tantrum at 20. and anyway no one deserves to deal with that shit just bc my brain is having a bad time.

I just want it to go away and I want to be a better kinder person but I’m not. I’m fucking angry and violent and I have no fucking outlet for it right now and it’s just getting worse.