So i was drawing karkat

and my mom walks in nd shes like “ugh! is that a monster! its so ugly!”

and im like “wow thats so mean. your hurting his feelings”

and she goes “that horrible monster? it doesnt have feelings”

and…

i had 66 cents in my paypal

i sent it all to Kino.

LOL ITS KINDA SAD. I WISH I COULD HAVE SENT MORE. IT WASN’T EVEN A WHOLE DOLLAR. OTL

I need a model

OTL drawing is hard

welp

looks like im not going to Rutgers because i was too busy having mental breakdowns and trying not to fail Calc and now im not going to be able to apply in time 8)

i need to update my dissertation proposal and write a cheat sheet for waiting for Godot and do calc homework and work on college applications

but i just…really dont want to.

im just. so. emotionally drained. I need a vacation.
I need to not cry myself to sleep every night.
I need to not be depressed.

im just not happy and not productive any everything sucks

i cant even say that im stressed. i wish that i was. i just…dont have the energy to do anything and i know that its going to come back to bite me in the ass but im just so fucking tired. i just want to NOT do these things. i want so badly to just say “fuck it” and not hand in my homework but i know that not an option and its killing me.

im not stressed, im just fucking tired and apathetic to everything and it sucks