Tag: the life and times

Lately my joint pain has spread into my fingers in my right hand

I’m really really worried because that’s my drawing hand. I don’t know what I’ll do if I can’t use my right hand anymore. The thought of losing my ability to draw is horrifying. I’m so scared 😦

Listening to the album “a rush of blood to the head” always makes me think of homestuck because i started reading and caught up to homestuck all in 4 days of straight reading and i was listening to that album when i did it.

i had a dream that my mom died last night. i went to live with my aunt and my cousin on this house on a crumbling cliff. I went up stairs and there was a room that had all my mom’s stuff. her clothes still smelled like her. 

it was so strange. i couldn’t believe that she was dead. It was just like she had left but i didn’t believe that she was really gone.

at the end of the dream she came back and i started crying and hugged her.

i don’t know where my dad was in all of this. its like he didn’t exist at all. maybe its because i barely have a relationship with him. 

I washed my sheets and took a shower today, which took most of my energy

i don’t know why some chores eat up so many spoons. Fuck medschool, i really should just be a freelance artist. then i can just not shower and sit around in the same clothes stewing in my own juices until i am informed that i will be interacting with people irl. Perfect plan

in all honesty though im thinking of buying and/or making one of those japanese onesises (kigurumis?) so that i can be totally cute while wearing the same thing every day. Probably i’ll make one since they seem to be pretty expensive.

the real question is, do i go fox or hyena?