Tag: rant

i am fucking LIVID right now

my fucking mother thinks that just because she;s my mother she can treat me like garbage.

She says that i have to fucking sit here and listen to her while she fucking shits all over me.

i cannot FUCKING believe this she is such a fucking CLOSED MINDED CHILDISH BITCH.

like are you fucking kidding me?????????????

i was trying to talk to her and she liotteraly interuppted me in the MIDDLE of a SENTACE and apparently im suppose3d to fucking stiop talking and listen to her because “shes the mom and you have to respect your parents!!!!”

??????
FUCK THAT

i dont care if you’re the fucking pope if you dont treat me with basic human decency im not going to listen to you!!!!

its not resonable to ask me to syop talking and listen to you when YOU were the one who interepted ME in the first place??????

like??????

why is this so hard to understand?????!!!!?????

it doesnt matter whop you are!!!
you are supposed to at the very least treat people with respect!!

im not asking you to bow down and kiss my feet!

all im fucking asking is that you at least LET ME FINISH MY SENTANCE and dont fucking stand there ROLLING YOUR EYES AT ME like i cant fucking see you!!!

also good job fucking shitting all over me and my fucking lifestyle you bitch

apparently anyone who gets pissed if they lose a game is a “Loser”

??????????

if you’re playing soccer, and you lose a soccer game because one of your team members stop playing in the middle of the game you would be completely justified!!!!!

but apparently if you lose a League game because one of you teammates went afk (because their fucking mom DEMANDED that they drop what they’re doing RIGHT NOW and go help her with something stupid and NOT TIME SENSITIVE) then you are a loser and this generation has failed and we all suck??????????????

THAT’S NOT REASONABLE

“oh but parents support their kids in sports because its healthy!!!”

thats bullshit and we all know it. by the time you hit the highschool/college level a LOT of sports can and do cause serious injury to their players. Parents and children arent worried about health at that point its about prestige lets not fucking play here.

“but parents drive their kids to practice and to games so they know when they are! they arent just playing 24/7!! so you should choose a certain time and then just play then!”

this is retarded on so many levels. FIRST: most people who play sports do in fact practice for HOURS during the season. SECOND: people don’t play video games 24/7 either????????? THIRD: It would not make sense to set a specific time to play video games because they are supposed to be for fun??? and scheduling makes it routine and boring and some people HATE routine.FOURTH: if you play with FRIENDS which most people DO then it makes even less sense to schedule it because not everyone is going to want or be able to play at that specific time. 

in conclusion. FUCK YOU.

also how DARE you fucking tell me that im not succeeding with my life because of video games. and that im addicted to them and put them before my responsibilities!

“i bet Amanda takes her education very seriously and doesn’t play games until after she’s done her homework!”

first of all you’ve met Amdanda like twice you dont fucking know that. second of all I GRADUATED WITH A 3.9 YOU DUMB BITCH! CLEARLY I WASNT LETTING VIDEO GAMES COME BEFORE MY RESPONSIBILITIES EITHER!

“but i dont think you played as many video games then!" 
I PLAYED MORE VIDEO GAMES THEN YOU ARE FULL OF SO MUCH SHIT

I DON’T EVEN PLAY VIDEO GAMES THAT OFTEN WHY THE FUCK DO YOU HAVE TO INSULT ME?????????????????????

also you dumb fucking broad. saying that i draw too much is fucking retarded. im sorry that i enjoy things????? and have passions?????

unlike your boring saggy assed white bread self??????

OH NO MY DAUGHTER HAS A PASSION SHE’S TAKING THIS TO EXCESS YOU SHOULD STOP DOING THINGS THAT MAKE YOU HAPPY AND JUST WALLOW IN YOUR MISERY INSTEAD.

ALSO BECAUSE IM THE LEAST SUPPOSRTIVE PERSON ON THE PLANET IM NOT GOING TO BE HAPPY YOU WANT TO GO INTO MEDICINE INSTEAD I WILL TELL YOU THAT YOU SHOULD GET A DIFFERENT DEGREE THAT YOU DONT WANT THAT WILL MAKE YOU MONEY SOONER BECAUSE WE DONT BELIVE IN YOU

WHAT DO YOU MEAN WE NEVER SUPPORT YOU??? OF COURSE WE DO THATS WHY WE TRY TO TAKE EVERYTHING YOU LOVE FROM YOU AND TELL YOU YOU’RE NOT PRETTY ENOUGH TO MODEL AND YOU’LL STARVE IF YOU BECOME AN ARTIST AND ALSO YOU SMELL BAD AND YOUR HAIR IS UGLY(im not even joking about those last too she has fucking said that to me)

its REAL FUCKING HILARIOUS to me that they say how video games and spending too much time on the computer are ruining my life when i would probably be dead without them???????

like without my internet friends over the years i would have probably litteraly run away and been raped/killed or i would have killed myself.

like ok buddy thats real fucking cool but yeah totally im ruining my life by playing too many games and spending too long online i totally believe you

like is it even fucking possible to have a converstaion with you without you insulting me and my life and my friends and my interests 3000 times before the conversation is through and disrespecting the hell out of me because "im your mother!!!”

giving birth to me alone is not a strong enough basis for me to respect you when you treat me like garbage 99% of the time

it doesnt matter if you love me and are trying to do what you think is best what you think is best is WRONG and your love for me does not excuse the abuse that you have put me through.

Its nice to know that my own fucking parents dont give 2 shits about my mental health and even if i am fucking crying because i am so upset they continue to disregard my opinion

because “They’re the boss”

because at 17 i still have to put up with them controlling every aspect of my life.

because after getting good grades, after getting all 5s on my APs, after cooking for myself and taking care of myself and going to the super market by myself and managing my own money by myself i still have to put up with this shit

because one year away from college my parents are still giving me a fucking bedtime and putting parental controls on my computer.

because even though their complete disregard of my opinion has brought me to tears and made me suicidal in the past, they are still in the right.

because me feeling physically ill from our confrontations is not enough to prove that my feelings have valid backings and should be accounted for.

because they are the parents.

i dont fucking have parents. my independence and controlling personality was born of necessity.

why should they be called parents? when it was not they who raised me??? when it was my grandmother and my babysitter who were always there. why should they be called parents when they offer no comfort and in fact cause me enough stress that my fucking doctor noticed and said i need a fucking therapist. why when all they provide are material things. when they do as the law requires by feeding and housing me but just fucking barley because if i want to go out and eat a fucking cheese burger with my friends they wont even give me five fucking dollars to buy one because “we have food at home”. when my brother and i are both clinically underweight and i have become used to feeling hungry because its the fucking norm.

are they my parents simply because they contributed the genetic material needed for me to be born? should my “father”’s oppinion ALWAYS be placed above my own when he didnt even want me and my mother had to trick him for me to be born? when he had tried to tell her to get an abortion????

but yes. because they are my parents. and that justification alone is enough to vindicate them even though i live in an emotionally traumatizing environment and have dealt with verbal and physical abuse from both parents for disagreeing with them. because even though i have always had my shit together my fathers rule is law.

because it is acceptable to forcefully shove your daughter into a metal headboard and hurting her because she decided she didnt fucking want to go to church.

and then never apologizing for it.

because clearly you were in the right youre the father after all!

because at 15 years old i was not then old e-fucking-nough to make the choice on whether or not i wanted to go to church with YOU specifically because it was a FAMILY thing and we had to be a FAMILY now when you had never taken me to church before.

it sure is easy to dump your children on other your whole life and then decide once they have already spent years being independent and taking care of themselves that you are going to start taking control and implementing all these rules that never existed before and there is no fucking need for.

i am very very upset

i feel sick

i fucking want to throw up

and it is because of my wise and benevolent parents and their wise choices that are whats best for me.

because making me feel suicidal and depressed and basicly like shit on a regular basis is whats best for me.

i tell myself one more year. one more year and im fucking free. but sometimes a year feels like such a fucking long time.