So I’m Mad

phantomrose96:

Some of you following me might know about this. Some of you might not know at all. But there’s a group of folks who, just about a week ago, raided the ABoT server. And they did it because they hate ABoT. They’re from a pocket of tumblr who’ve decided ABoT is problematic because it’s dark. That the existence of abuse in the fic–no matter how much it’s portrayed as bad–makes the fic unworthy of existing. But I’m not gonna start with getting backed up against a wall trying to justify the existence of conflict and dark themes in writing. I’m gonna start with this. 

Here’s an incomplete list of what these folks have done over the last year and a half or so

• spread a rumor around tumblr that I’m a pedo apologist (because I kicked someone out of the ABoT server for sending death threats, and these death threats were directed at a rit//mob shipper not even in the discord) which is a serious as hell accusation and false
• made at least one post that I know about saying I should kill myself
• sent me hate (but hey thats a given on tumglr dot hell)
• have gone around accusing ABoT of being “child torture porn”, and I see how badly they’re trying to put the word “child” and “porn” next to each other. despite the fact that ABoT has absolutely no sexual content at all.
• as of this week: spammed the ABoT, A Breach of Trust, and phantomrose96 tag 
• including hate and more threats mixed in with the spam
• took URLs related to ABoT to spam and send violent messages
• (they spammed the mp100 tag too while doing this idk what they planned to get out of that but)
• raided the ABoT discord. As in they took advantage of our open-door policy, came in en-masse, and tried to flood the channels. Luckily our mod Nova shut them down quickly. But you know what? Damage done. People got freaked out. That discord is a close-knit community a year and a half in the making. You know who you help by raiding a place like that and making us close our doors? Absolutely no one.

And you know what the people in the ABoT server have done? None of that. The people in the ABoT server have built a supportive, mature, respectful community. So yeah, we don’t do that here.

I’ve been so patient. I’ve held my tongue. I didn’t want drama, or to drag anyone else into drama. I didn’t want to get anyone flooded with hate, so I stayed quiet and let those people be bitter, nasty, hateful people. Because I understand some people would get upset that an AU they don’t like has so much content. There’s no rules against being mean on the internet, okay, I know that. I stood by when they stayed in their own corner. But this is a step beyond that. Raiding the server meant dragging in so many more people. And I’m fed up.

And let me reiterate. ABoT’s crime? That it’s angsty. And the thing is, THAT wasn’t even the original accusation against it. These people started stirring out of bitterness that ABoT got attention, and I’ve seen them jump from one wild accusation to another trying to find a purchase for their crusade. Because they knew as soon as they could pin it down as Problematic then they would have full and free reign to be the “good guys” while destroying someone else’s hardwork and happiness and community.

And let me add this in–I’m open to criticism. I tag whatever people want me to tag. I rethink my own content if or when people come to me with concerns about what it portrays. I’m a growing, learning, human being, and I want to be a good person. What these people are doing isn’t criticism. It’s hate. It’s spam. It’s harassment. 

I’m tired of stressing about what accusation these people will have against me next. I’m tired of stressing about what action they’ll take next. I’m tired of second-guessing every word I type, because any single out of context sentence may be used to string me up. My mental health is worth way more than that, and I’m tired of letting that suffer.

I’m a positive blog. I’m a positive person. But I’ve got my limits here. These people are sad. They thrive off sucking the life force out of other things, and the worst part is they act like they’re in the right. Any kind of argument you can make against them will be deflected as “you’re defending the Problematic Side, now here’s a callout post for you too.” That’s what they did to Joey (Sandflakedraws), after Joey decided to stick up for me. They’re not doing things to protect people. They’re bullies, bottom line.

You wanna do something nice? Give to a charity. Volunteer at a soup kitchen. Do literally anything other than harass people.

I’m still writing ABoT.