Just because I’m still hurt over these particular things that was said to me every once in a while I’d like to reiterate:
I am an orphan. I do not have family members. I have not had family members in over 10 years. I am 21. I have lived with countless non-legitimate foster families. I have been homeless living on the street as a preteen on my own. I enrolled myself in schools to try and live as a normal adolescent. I haven’t had a stable health insurance my whole life because I was on my own/with foster families. I missed out on a childhood because I was forced to grow up when I was 11 and abandoned.
I am currently adopted by a family that loves me like their own children. I am treated equally with their children. I am accepted and safe now. I am in treatment for severe PTSD. I am currently taking a genetic DNA testing supported by my adoptive family to learn about myself and the family I never knew. I have my own room that I was able to paint pink like I always wanted. I am in college; something I never thought I was ever able to do.
Just because I’m adopted and better off than I ever was doesn’t mean I don’t remember how it felt; doesn’t mean I’m not still an orphan; doesn’t mean I’m not hurting. I have to live the rest of my life knowing I have no one on my own. I live a very strong full of burden life knowing that another family wanted me; I feel guilty they took me in; I feel it is not their responsibility to care for me. Because I have a family now doesn’t minimize the amount of pain I’ve gone through my whole life as an orphan. Don’t you dare tell me I don’t know how it feels because I’m in a nice house with a nice adopted family now. I’ve suffered my entire life. YOU don’t know how it feels.
Don’t tell an orphan they are privileged. We have nothing on our own. No one. Everything in our lives depend on someone else; the hope that someone cares enough to help. Just because an orphan finds a home that is caring and supportive doesn’t make them any less of an orphan.
People who say anything snarky about my upbringing are nothing to me. You don’t deserve my time. I couldn’t be any more offended.
It would mean a lot to me to spread this; the ‘orphan’ tag is filled with Television/Media and the ‘adopted’ tag is filled with Pets/Animals. I think adoption and orphaned victims are silenced and forgotten about and I really want to make a difference and let my voice and support be known especially around holiday season. We are important. We are valuable.
It is holiday season and I had an awful day today and I’d like to reach out to all the orphaned victims out there. You’re not alone and I understand how it feels. You are so strong. I love you.
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