Jesus Christ! it’s like my mom is fucking TRYING to make me as miserable as possible!!! I move back out to school in THREE DAYS and she can’t wait that long she has to fucking make sure the last few days I spend here suck 

like???????

she’s always fucking criticizing my appearance and saying how bad I look and how I’m hairy and gross and pajonua and how my dyed hair is ugly and stupid looking and like!!! I am so done with it!!! I just do not want to have to sit here and take it anymore!!!!

and of course even when she’s saying she offering to do something “"nice”“ for me by ”“suggesting”“ the ”“option”“ of getting hair extensions instead of just letting me dye my hair she has to be so fucking underhanded about it! like fucking telling me how goddamn expensive it is and how nice of her it is to offer this and fucking telling me to watch stupid videos on it that I DONT WANT TO WATCH. and when I tell her five fucking times that I’ll watch it already she still has to sit there trying to fucking sell it to me!

literally all I did was ask her to go so I could watch the fucking video in peace and she gets all pissed off at me for asking her to leave! like I just want my privacy!!

 it’s not asking a fucking lot to be able to be alone in my fucking room for a while but she has to be so fucking nasty about it and then she uses it as an excuse to take everything away from me and say she’s not going to take me to the salon at all anymore or go anywhere when getting my fucking hair done was supposed to be my birthday present. like. I haven’t gotten any birthday of Christmas presents from them for like 4 or 5 years now and all I god damn wanted was to be able to get my hair done before I went back to school and now it looks like I can’t even have that!!!!

like and we have the added fucking bonus of her making me watch the stupid fucking video trigger my dysphoria bc of course theres some pretty made up girly girl doing the fucking demonstration and i KNOW thats what my mom wants me to be and thats! not! me!

thats never going to be me! im not a girl! even when i wear makeup im not a girl! and im CERTAINLY not a girly girl!!!! like fuckk off about it already!!!