ive been crying a lot since last night and its scaring me because i just keep remembering that time a few months ago where i cried myself to sleep almost every single night for like a few months and i REALLY dont want to go back there

i just keep trying to concentrate on the fact that im going to Otakon in a few months and im going to have so much fun with Jenny but its still hard to be positive.

i just really hope im not getting into a downswing again