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- ????? before I even did anything she already tried to take away my hypothetical laptop
- and I can't even make a real post about this because I'm on mobile
- and I don't ever get anything
- and I just have to sit here and be made to feel shitty and awful
- and I know I'm just going to get something incredibly shitty
- and I see everyone else being happy and getting nice things that they like at least once in a while
- And I try to ask her why and she is such a fucking bitch about it
- and it's just always so upsetting to be constantly disappointed
- and it's like
- and it's not even like its about me being greedy because it's not about the money
- and like 'we can choose what we want to give you it's not required'
- and she never fucking responded
- and there's nothing that I can do to fix the situation and it just feels so so bad
- because my parents turn the Internet off at 11 even though I'm fucking 18 years old and no one else has to deal with this shit
- I asked my mom before if I could get a laptop for Christmas and she said 'only if I get to take it away when you piss me off'
- I didn't even get a cake last year
- I didn't get a Christmas gift last years and I haven't gotten a birthday present two years in a row
- I fucking hate how controlling these assholes are it literally makes me want to murder them
- I just want to be able to enjoy myself like everyone else and I can't
- I literally want to kill my parents because they make me so miserable and I feel so trapped
- I'm just so fucking tired of being dissapointed
- in just so upset because there is literaly no way that I can talk to them
- it's be one thing if she gave me a straight answer like if it was too much money or something but no
- like Christmas and birthdays are supposed to be the one time out of the year when you can just get something nice that you want
- my parents got home and immediately made me feel like garbage
- she just ducking said 'your not getting that you don't get to descide what you get for Christmas'
- since if not I could ask my aunt
- so she finally gets home and I ask her about it and she says no
- then my aunt asked me what I want for Christmas so I texted my mom to see if she actually planned to get me a laptop
- they don't treat me like a real person at all
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