i had a dream that my mom died last night. i went to live with my aunt and my cousin on this house on a crumbling cliff. I went up stairs and there was a room that had all my mom’s stuff. her clothes still smelled like her. 

it was so strange. i couldn’t believe that she was dead. It was just like she had left but i didn’t believe that she was really gone.

at the end of the dream she came back and i started crying and hugged her.

i don’t know where my dad was in all of this. its like he didn’t exist at all. maybe its because i barely have a relationship with him.